Things That Remind Me #46

Its not the simply fact of not having someone to just be one with. Its not the fact that I work or school and stress. Its not the fact that life and aging. 

Its the fact that no one else is there to help bring sound to the white noise in life,

Its the fact that work is quite and judgmental with nothing to look foward to,

Its the fact that school takes forever.

Its the fact that alone is alone and having no choice but to pause and feel forced to think.

“You wont believe the… you wont… you… you arent”

Things That Remind Me #45

I believe in love, i believe in trust

i believe in friendship,

I believe in lust

I believe in bonds

I believe in beauty

I believe in looks being the bond of unity

I believe in looks being nothing more

I believe in looks being why people are called whores

I believe in long and ever lasting love

I believe in love growing from broken gloves

I believe in wisdom and trying your best

I believe effort being your real test

I believe in madness 

i believe sorrow

i believe in sadness

but its only borrowed

I believe in the end we will see our day

When we reach the ends and hit the bay

It will take time to find the right stuff but

I will believe we will eventually find our love.

Things that Remind Me #44

From the night, beautiful:
you keep the fights
go on the sleep each other truly
on beds as one, no name.

When I say: The sea and feet of every planet,
to your hips the water,
enter your heart sails through the sea forget you,
because we are the secrets breathed,
with your eyes and sings.

I can write for her.

-Pablo Neruda

Things That Remind Me #43

Quick quips and thin hips

A trip of laughter from to a witty retreat with a wasted waist with ease of grip,

Sarcastic tactics to implore retorts and extort pundit gifts and a missed mid-section belt loops. 

Because life is to short for seriousness yet in need of responsibility. An excessive passive aggressive message through clever insults.

Because life is short and can be made shorter with obesity that borders  over pant sizes we cant seem to outgrow as we get older. A tit for tat of fat over fitness to witness our so called life  waste to the taste and need for money. Muffin tops that mushroom over the counter tops of our legs stand.

Quick quips and thin hips.

Things That Remind Me #42

I will suffer your follies, Endure your absence

Ignore being left behind when your life advances

Pretend its fine when you neglect my feelings

Make damn sure I’m here when you need healing

And I hope my dedication isn’t maniacal or sappy

Just aslong that I know that you’ll always be happy.

Things That Remind Me #41

As your things come undone 

See you are the only one 

Flower, seize the hour I did 

I wait 

Waiting, waiting for your wake 

I’ll wait 

When you wake up you’re all weak 

Throwing your life away 

Someday, sorry coming home 

Sorry snail 

What you wait for 

Flower, the pain will wash away, away 

When the sun shines 

Climbs through your window into your bed

Things That Remind Me #40

Place holder to know i already have a #40

Things That Remind Me #39

Senseless in thoughts,

Senseless in movements,

Senseless in the sense that the essence’s not human.

Present like new cells,

Present like stale air,

Present like seldom a senile mans lifespan.

Untitled is existence,

Untitled is nameless,

Untitled is logic in ideas I dont have.

Nothing,

Nothing,

Nothing.

Things That Remind Me #38

I forget not everyone knows the side of me that rambles fiction like facts in a playful manner

Sometimes I am alone for so long that the words I say don’t matter

Its not intentional for me to disrespect you to the level that is neglectful

Just sometimes i feel so potential full of stories to tell me that i soeak them back as facts to you

.but it doesn’t always work.

Perception of reality takes a decidedly absurd turn when it all begins to collide. Logic and reason fly out the door.

Things That Remind Me #37

The Monster and his keeper

He’s wasted space a day dreamer

She’s damaged goods looking for one who wont leave her

A rough mentally shes has, jaded by the shit in her past

Feels the joy wont last

Now she has to cause she has you

Found that one link shes felt could be true

=

He’s wasted space a day dreamer

She’s damaged goods looking for one who wont leave her

He thinks his possibilities are vast, but then gets to ask

Why happiness is never within grasp

Then he stares in her eyes cause they’ll never lie

As she tells him “there’s a brighter future in sight”

Things That Remind Me #36

Coming to with terms

and realizing that its fact

that real estate in your brain leaves burns

thought  keep turning back

Socks and shoes, black or blue

details keep describing clues

of moments of sublime states

thats just assuming you-

took what was and not at all for granted

nourish your memory with sunshine and good feelings

much need to feed the memory you’ve planted

cant fix whats not broke and no need for healing

but good plants turn to weeds sometimes

and that becomes an issue

when you try to remove that plague in mind

leaving scorched thoughts of scar tissue

Things That Remind Me #35

Que Es Esto?(Poema)

Dec 12, 2008

ques esto?
entre tantas porquerías que yo he hecho
he abusado de todos mis derechos, de vivir
pero solo con el proposito de decir
soy vivo, soy hombre 
en la vida, es como uno vive que el mundo te responde
y se supone que de eso nacio mi rebeldía
que dia tras dia cambia mas la vida mia

y me preguntas porque esta rebeldia
corriendo las noches pero no con alma fria


y al responder tus theorias te he dicho
que en esta planeta en que vivimos somos unos bichos
trbajamos dia tras dia por un poder
atados en este rumbo desde que fuimos de nacer
pero porque?
ques esto?

y por eso todos somos únicos unido haciendo lo mismo
en rebeldía es como nuestra manos se ponen listos
a cargar estas pinche maletas, 
sujeta las! 
por favor que no caigan al piso
porque estan lleno de pression dado con amor
por tus padres pa que termines todas tus metas

solo haci, escucha
sabras la lucho 
que te la vida para vivir

Things That Remind Me #34

Life On Lithium

(Sep 7, 2008)

many days i have felt to subsist in your presence
and as i slowly plunge into my own psyche
your absence is felt more to be the cause of what myself is today
but little by little those trouble went away
and constant fight of self judgment had easily cleared out of my head

not missed will be the slow rise of temper the had persisted within for the past years of my own existence
nor  will i miss those long lonely nights i stayed up wishing that my soul could catch a dream that it was fishing

but i am able to tolerate the pressure to act out and steam up at what life has given me as i am also able to suppress the constant urge to result all my problems in violence 
its just the power of my manic state that i wish i could hold, bare long enough to keep a listless attitude toward lithium

Things That Remind Me #33

Always Looking

Apr 30, 2008

‘m looking for someone that i had lost
ha..couldn’t find her
i looked through every memory in my possession 
and hopelessly continued with no leads

search in the files where she was labeled
but no presence was felt
no exchange in words
no teaser of her were abouts

on and on i went 
looking in more places
i began diggin through my memory’s bank 
withdrawing as much as i could with no prevail

to make matters worst i began getting tired
the sandman was growing near
so i hurried before the sleep caught on
but my efforts went unnoticed as i was tackled to the ground
..as i fell asleep

to my surprise
it wasn’t my sleep growing strong
but more the sleep wearing off
and i had awoke to the subconscious hunt for…

stress and almost possessed i looked
continuously with no certainty
and as the last ounce of hope had ran down
this hourglass of my hunt
success!

but this person wasn’t who i had imagined
her face had not the expression i wanted
i had build her up for more than she’d meant 
and highlighted only what i wanted in return

i thought and i thought about this super-being
how could she just simply run around in my mind?
i felt so crushed
yes, she had rocked my world 
and without fail
meteor after meteor had hit

but she cant be to blame 
for she had no knowledge of her affect on me
that same effect that was so strong
that had made me quit a hunt before

Things That Remind Me #32

Image of Perfection

Aug 10, 2009

i painted an image in my head
one that, even if i tried to paint out, 
wouldn’t come out exactly as it was
and i prefer this. 
im selfish and i hope you understand
its the most beautiful thing i can envision and its mine
to share it with you would ruin it
to give details would do it no justice
but what i can say is that i wish i never forget

if i lose that, if i paint it out.. then what?
you’ld see it, then have it and you’d take it
take my vision of perfection and turn it into something for yourself
you’ld say it stood for love
then joy, 
then sadness
then hate
then remorse
describe it back to me in your words
and it would kill me
because its so perfect cause its flawed 
its so wrong that its right
it just is what it is
and i’d like it to stay that way
perfect to me